Name: cleng
a twenty-seven year old walking around looking like sixteen(and believe me, that's not always good). a frustrated writer and lover of literature, reading hard bound nancy drew books when i was nine, making crazy poems, keeping a now embarrassing journal, and wanting to be a journalist for as long as i can remember (except for that brief time i so wanted to become a ballerina). but the Lord led me to a entirely different path. im now a licensed physician, though i wonder, can a doctor become as kikay and as loud as i am? hehe. i can be really weird and extremely emotional, but pretty much tolerable. i'm just being a girl, i guess. =)
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My 2003 year end entry
The year of a lot of crossroads. The year I had to make big decisions, some right, yung iba, medyo sablay. I realized that I am old- old enough that I have to stand for what I chose to do. This is the real life. No one to save me as I face the consequences of my actions.
Med has been particularly difficult because I am experiencing burn out.
I’ve been in school for as long as I could remember, and I’ve come to a point where I just want to throw the endless routine out the window. But still I hang on. Because this is what I want to do. And this is what I’m meant to be. Yung nga lang, I realized that I have to really work hard if I want to go somewhere in life.
I know I disappointed a lot of people. This year gave me a lot of pain, and I’ve inflicted pain on others. People has always saw me a certain way. Pero this year kinain ko yung mga sinabi ko. I admit I made a mistake. I let my heart run away with me. You don’t know how painful that felt, to let people down. To have them look at me and to know they think, “you should have…”. 
This was the year I fell inlove again. I was really happy. Life has never been so close to perfect. But maybe things were not meant to stay that way. Too bad for me. But still, I have learned to count life’s greatest blessings: God’s faithfulness, my mom, my family, my friends. I have to value the most precious people I have. When I was at my lowest, God never left me. He has held me in His arms and made me cry out my heart to Him. Although He was the one I disappointed most of all, I know that He was the one who stuck by me through it all. I still could not understand how there is that kind of love and forgiveness. God’s grace is overwhelming, sometimes it’s the only thing I hold on to when I am desperate. Still it hasn’t failed me. 
My friends.
They are just amazing. I realized that you should never take them for granted, just because they are always there. All the more, you should show them you love them because they are the ones keeping you from falling apart. They are pieces of God’s goodness here on earth. I was never more aware of the beauty and miracle of friendship. I thank God for them. Shemps, this was the year din na nabuo mga angels ko!!!
I love you guys.
I am excited yet at the same time dread the coming year. It has becoming a lot more difficult as you get older. But I know I’ll be ok. People I love will always be there. So I bravely welcome the coming year. Hehe wag nyo kong iwan ha!!! 
wow, hi. third attempt to have a respectable live journal. hehe visit na rin claireceliz@diaryland.com
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